For the past few days, I’ve had so many thoughts about this self-quarantine ordered by the government, but also ordained by God. Where do I start and what does it all mean? Yes, it’s for our safety. Necessary. Again, what does it all really mean?

I see it as a pause in life. A chance to reflect, an opportunity to reevaluate my life and take inventory of all the things I’ve overlooked, hurried through, done wrong, and beat myself up over. It’s an opportunity to see a bit clearer, create something new, instead of always seeing my wrongs.

I talked with my mom this morning as I always do, the difference was she called me first, worried about how I was doing. “ I wanted to see how you were doing, your alone. I’m used to it,  this is different for you”. How are you? A little more into our conversation she said,” I’m going to look at my phone list from church for some of the other older ladies at church like me and give them a call.” I sighed in pleasant wonder at her beauty, during this unusual pause.

I also thought about another conversation that I had yesterday. It was with my friend Ida, who’s 90 years old. She was so calm as usual yet still concerned like my mother (84) about all that’s going.on. 

Here’s what is really striking my curiosity. Quarantine is not unusual for them, they already know how to deal with it all.

Part of my conversation with Ida.

Ida: “Baby my house may not be the cleanest, I do what I can do, then I stop and take a rest and do a bit more the next day if I feel like it.” Her house is always orderly and neat, with that old school charm like she’s always expecting company, even when I try to give her short notice so that she won’t have enough time to do anything extra or special. As always, whenever I ask her about her day she explains how it goes, in all of it’s routine and particular steps. Which she says are “getting shorter and shorter!”, with a chuckle. During the whole conversation, I’m still self-examining and filled with wonder.

There’s much to be learned by her and my mother, and countless people like them. I realize I’ve got a lot to change in my living. And so much more to ponder. At the top of my list, how to live in isolation with dignity and grace, reach out more and pay better attention to others.                                


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